This is not good...

Have been walking around with stupid grin on face for past week. Knew I was in trouble when found self smiling absently at computer screen while sipping a latte this morning and thinking about S. This does not bode well for my independent-woman status. My relationships, as a rule, are disastrous and the only part of my charmed life not basking in the glow of good karma. S, however, seems to be changing all that. I saw him yet again last night after LC worked magic on my hair (blond AND red now! Quite stunning if I do say so myself!). Stressed and exhausted I almost nixed having him over but he leaves for LA today and I may not see him for a month+ unless I go visit...
His visit proved most relaxing as he gave me a backrub and held me until I fell asleep: yum. At first I was wary of his seeming aggressiveness but I am beginning to see that it is simply who he is. He wears his heart on his sleeve: what you see if what you get. There is no pretense, no show: just him. He doesn't hold back in anything including adoring me although I still do not know what I did to deserve any of this. While S is open he says I "hold my cards close". Ironically, he said I am mysterious but that "mysterious" was not quite the right word. I proposed "enigma" and he said that was dead on; the irony is that a man who once loved me used to call me a "mystery wrapped in an enigma". I have no idea what they are talking about! heh heh...
I have known S only two weeks and already it feels like a year; time is funny like that isn't it? He told me to practice dancing in his absence because when he returns we are going out every night haha! He is such fun. Speaking of fun, J and I are hitting Ra tonight and will undoubtedly cause mass destruction and heartache in our wake:-)